Hello there lovely Buttoneers! Grab a cup of coffee – It’s a biggie today! I have a confession to make….You know in my Birthday Adventures blog post last week when I was talking about my previous blog challenges ‘27 Before 27‘ and ‘Create 28‘? You know how I said that Create 28 had almost killed me off and that I wasn’t going to do another blog challenge again? Well…I have been mulling it all over again. Confession Time…and a New Challenge?
Yikes! There, I said it. It’s out there. Swoosh…out into the world…maybe I will sleep better now?
When I wrote to you guys last week I was very careful with how I talked about my previous blog challenges, mainly because I was waist deep in the middle of a complex argument in my head about whether I should or shouldn’t create a blog challenge to embark on this year. SPOILER ALERT: I still have no idea.
I have been back and forth with ideas and pros and cons and it is driving me insane!
The main reason behind my crazy brain at the moment is that I need more structure to my days. Working for myself and by myself means that it can be a total procrastination station over here. I need a better working day ratio – more work, less procrastination for sure. Less consuming, more creating. Less worrying about getting things perfect, More work on getting things done, finished, out the door and move on to the next thing. Don’t look back.
Except, as I know I can’t be the only one, it’s not that simple.
When I first explored the idea of creating this little biz of mine, I spent a lot of time reading. I read creative business books, how-to’s, blogs and magazines. I searched Pinterest (when it was in its infant years), watched YouTube speakers and creators, soaked up T.E.D Talks etc etc etc.
I thought that I couldn’t start until I was ‘ready’.
I thought I needed all of the information about everyone and everything before I could sign up for my own blog, before I typed my first blog post, before I hit publish, before I opened an Etsy shop. I thought I needed to wait until those things were in my reach. I was soooooo wrong. I was just scared. The fear made me believe that there really was a ‘ready’ at the end of it all and there wasn’t. I just had to leap off the cliff into the unknown abyss and find my own way back to the top.
Don’t get me wrong, I was right to be prepared. I was right to gain some knowledge and find my footing first, but there is nothing like being ‘in the field’, nothing like diving head first out of your comfort zone and finding your own way.
Would another challenge help me find my own way again?
All of the reading and watching in the world wouldn’t have prepared me for starting a creative business, let alone all that I have learnt over the last three and a half years. I feel like it is exactly the same for all of my ideas that I have spinning around in my head. I find myself procrastinating and tweaking on a daily basis, rubbing bits out here and re-drawing things there. I find myself reading about bloggers that I look up to, watching them succeed and progress. I find myself watching just one more D.I.Y video tutorial, reading one more creative business advice post on Pinterest, Scrolling once more through inspiring images on Instagram, but not actually getting anything of my own down on paper.
Just a whirlwind of new ideas, a tangle of overwhelming information and more often than not a huge does of the comparisons.
I find myself waiting for my ideas and my designs and my creations to be ‘ready’ to fly on their own into the handmade world when really I should let them run wild with abundance, sing and dance with the other ideas.
I need to give my own ideas a chance rather than cage it all in and wait for creativity to find me and unlock it all. I need to give myself the freedom to play around with ideas and make things happen for myself instead of just absorbing everyone else’s progress and then ending up feeling pretty yuk about my own.
My blogging and creative business hero, Elise Blaha Cripe says it perfectly in her wonderfully written blog post ‘Time Spent Consuming VS. Creating’. Elise says:
I want to just stop here for a moment and breath it all in. I feel like Elise took the words out of my head when she wrote this. View Post