Autumn…I love it. The crunching of leaves, the glittering reds, oranges and browns, the coloured landscapes, the hot take away coffee’s sat in the chilly park, the acorns and horse chestnuts…The first sign of Autumn and I was there, coat in hand, camera in the other, at the front door ready to embrace its vibrant beauty. Autumn Glitter and I’m No Quitter…
This is as far as this post got at the start of October.
I realise I am posting this Autumn post in December now. Autumn wasn’t such a great Season for me in my personal life. I very almost decided to hit this blog lark on the head before I had even made it public.
I feared it was too late, too much commitment and too much scheduling in such an uncertain terrain.
I feared that I didn’t have it in me, that I couldn’t do it, that I was never ever going to be able to compete with the fabulous bloggers out there that just seemed to have it all together.
But I think that’s what turned it around. I had to be on the brink of giving up and seeing all those ideas go to waste, all the time I had spent planning and talking about posts that might not even come to fruition. I had to see myself telling all of the people that I had told about my blog start-up idea, imagine their faces when they asked about my future plans, the struggle I would have to justify all of my excuses through my own hurt pride and failure. Then I saw it…
I thought I had missed the boat, I saw it leaving, I ran like the wind, jumped off the harbour wall and clutched hold of the ships ropes with dear life.
I needed to hold on, pull myself back up and stick my head in the air. I realised that okay, I didn’t climb aboard this next chapter very together or gracefully, but at least I climbed aboard. Who cares if I didn’t go about this blog start-up like everybody else? Why did I think that after all these years or doing things my way, should I start now, with my blog, with something that absolutely needs to be full of my character, my personality and my irritating habits?
So I Missed out on an Autumn post? So What? I am proud of how far I have come this season after such a tough chapter and I, one morning, this morning in fact, Woke up, Climbed out of bed and thought
“Today, I will not quit. Today, I will not pressure myself. Today, I start afresh”
So here they are…My Autumn Pictures…in my Autumn blog post…In December.
Meet me for a chat with a cup of tea in the comments – I’ll click the kettle on!